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Yours Truly. 7:41 PMY

Me, Bryan BB, Xiang Yue and Fifi.



Shot no. 1 with Xue Yun



Shot no. 2 with Xue Yun

Yours Truly. 9:39 PMY

Project Presentation is OVER and its HD FOR US!!!!!!

Yessss.... The J-horror presentation is finally over... ytd was a heart-stopping day for us cuz after the presentation, our lecturer was giving lots of critiques and only one compliment!!! That instance, I could see my grp mates faces of white as sheet (like damn... we all worked so hard for it and had so many meetings). Haha.... But we soon got back the composure when he said "Ok I reckon...... a High Distinction for your group". Thank God for blessing us!!! There were a couple oustanding grps but we didn't say thruout. Wheeeee.... Now we have to work on the next academic paper on HERO.... I wouldn't say it is a bad show nor I would say its a very good one. Tho the show was directed by the all-time popular Zhang Yi Mou but still, I prefer the American films.... more interesting plots and sporadic moments.

BBQ-ed ytd and for someone who is always waiting to be served.... I couldn't believe that I helped to set up the fire and bbq-ed the food thru the evening. Of cuz I smelt like a walking satay after the whole session. It was nonetheless fun and I wouldn't mind doing it again... now I know the perks of standing at the pit, cuz u get to eat more and keep the good ones. Haha.

Adding one more happening in Dec to my basket... but again, I can't reveal what's it until the secrecy is over.... But I bet it's gonna be one whole lots of exp for me. :)

Mabs is coming back on 27 Nov!!!! And thats like 4 more days! I can't wait babe! Remember those times we would go clubbing out of a sudden and party thru the night... talk nonsense for hours at Balcony Bar, go around shopping for hours and gossip abt anything and everything! When you're back, we are gonna do it again and make sure Fel turns up as well... I know Perth can be such a boring place sometimes, esp at night... And of cuz, we definitely cannot miss out the updates we ought to know about your "happening"life in Aussie. Hehe.


Having a 30% test tml but I am so lazy to study.... I guess I have to no matter wad.... :(


I feel like going to Parkway and take a walk around... I haven't been there for ages as I am spending lots of time of the West lately... The East side rocks and I shall still stay in the East in future! Ok I better study abit and go take a stroll @ Parkway... I feel like buying a book to read as well.... Borders it is!

Yours Truly. 10:52 AMY

=(

My colleague told me about the 8pm show ytd by Christopher Lee and Quan Yi Feng. She said she cried (for the first time watching such shows) cuz the plight of the family was so bad that not a normal human being is able to take it. The house was in a bad state, the mum refuses to walk and has been bedridden for 9 nine years and the dad had one leg amputated as he is diabetic. The girl herself is only 9 years old and at such young age with a impressionable mind, she has to clean the mum's poo and urine (cuz she just refuses to get out of bed) and she has to cook; even her spectacles looked as tho it was my granny's. When asked whether how she felt about her life, she said its ok and she feels that whatever she has is good enough. I am so ashamed sometimes after hearing such evoking words from a sympathetic 9 year-old. I was still throwing a kid tantrum when I was 9 la...

I think we should be contented with our lives. Although I may spend and spend but I think for a 300 bucks bag or wallet, I could easily give joy to such a family. It makes me think twice on splurging on things I shldn't have, perhaps once in a while its fine cuz with some excess money, I can donate cash or in kind to these families in dire needs. Oh well, all I can say is that the richest form of ppl exist and of cuz there will always be poor families around as well to make up that proportion, sometimes it is just not within our will or capability to help all of them. So I say, we should do some good deeds whenever we can cuz you nv know whom you may help today. :)

It's so ironic, here I am making such talks, and there I am, spending money to buy clothes online. Old habits die hard they say. =P But oh well, there is always this first step that I must take to help the needy!!! Cuz I really do believe in reciprocity. For those that you've helped, someone else may just do the same for you should you need it.

Just a joke:
Mum was talking on the phone with my aunt and she was saying in Mandarin: "Did you watch the show ytd? The girl so guai la!! She clears her mum's poo and urine and she is just 9 years old, such a good girl!!"

Then I could sense the bad vibes coming and before she could arrow me, I said: "Mum, why don't you go do some business somewhere and let me clear your poo and urine for you to show my sincerity also la....."

I think Mum gave me the "You Win" face and said "CHOY! Cursing me like this...."


Haha she is so hilarious, sometimes I just wanna pinch her cheeks. Wahaha...


Contemporary Pop Culture is not that bad afterall, I enjoyed doing cultural studies on Bruce Lee, Ned Kelly, H.K films and so on... they are so memorable back then but today, we are looking at them in a different perspective, the underlying meaning behind those classics. Project is fine as well but stupid Ringu and The Ring just happened to be our topic of interest and studying the cultural imperialism of it is definitely far more interesting than Logarithm and Algebras. =P Thank God that I don't have to touch Math for the past 5 years, it was a horrid experience, short of being a sucidal catalyst. Back to the project, yea had a nitemare after watching it. -_- I seriously don't appreciate horror shows cuz besides screaming my lungs out and scaring myself with that digital effects and mind-playing story plot, I don't see why I should be paying $7.50, or even $10 for the movie ticket!

Okaye back to project now, man....... I have no life.

December is coming soon! I am looking forward to it! Its mid-week ppl!!!!

Yours Truly. 8:54 PMY

I realised that there is no use doing comparisons, cuz ultimately, u will feel even more disappointed. Well, everyone is different and unique in their own ways. We shld learn how to appreciate, esp me. I shld also learn to lower my expectations and be more emotionally dependent. Yes, that's what I shld do from today, this instance onwards.... life is too short to feel upset over things that I shldn't have in the first place... time to move on and spend those time doing more meaningful stuff!!!!


I've finally found a friend, yes, an old friend who is so gonna learn ballroom dance sport with ME..... fine, its just that we both din realised that we have common hobbies until JUST NOW!!! Think diving and dance sport. Hiak hiak.... Yayness that I am gonna put my dance shoes into practice again!!!! I can't wait!!!!! Anyone interested let me know yea? :)


Ok my mood really became MUCH better after the gelare ice cream. Yums... time to go to bed and start afresh tml! Suddenly I began to like classes again.... contemporary pop culture, sounds cheesy but its rather fly.... :) Have a GREAT weekend ppl!!!! :)


P.S. Dying and itching to go diving..... SOON PLS! My mask needs to soak into those salt water baby.

Yours Truly. 11:50 PMY

And she finally broke down in tears.


It felt damn horrible to cry alone at night, especially on a rainy and chilly one. Its been a really long while. But I did feel better after the let-out. Definitely not PMS-ing away cuz it really did feel much more terrible. I couldn't go into sleep cuz of the stuffiness between the ribcage and the skin. It feels like something is boiling inside.... and you feel like you will break any moment.

This week has been a really screwed-up week. I felt the tension, the sadness, the disgust, the misunderstandings, the emotions, the anger, the shame, the rejected, the rush.... Anything but happiness. This week, I've definitely left my smile at home, somewhere around the bed I figured. I tot back alot on the past and thinking back, I could have appreciated what was done for me but I chose not to. It was silly. But I know I gotta move forward. Sometimes when u feel sad, u wished there was something you could feel happy about, I searched and searched and I found nothing but old memories and it made me feel even more down.

In comparison to other's problems, mine seem pretty small but I reckon it's big enough to sink me into a depressed state. I think I need a happy pill soon. I hate myself like this.... its not good for me. I know I have to get myself out of this state as soon as I can. I am trying and I need time for myself to think thru. I can't be happy at the expense of others, I can only remind myself to stay focused and be optimistic as the bad times will be over soon. But isn't selfishness everyone's nature?



I am so sick of feeling this way. Definitely not funny anymore. Sigh.

Flip side is, I know the ice cream feast after sch tml is gonna make me feel better. :) But not everyone will be willing to do so just to make the other feel better cuz most humans are selfish and insensitive creatures afterall. Time can tell. Sad to admit but I am one of those at times.

Yours Truly. 10:09 PMY

BLUES Maybe Not!

I think I need my space to rant so damn badly.... scrolled thru the phone book and it is still the same ppl I would call... instead of spoiling and affecting ppl's mood, I think retail therapy works well for me. :) Sometimes I feel damn tired afer work, I just wanna go home and rest but when I get home, all I get is shoutings and screamings, like why I din close the cupboard before I go out and why my things are all on the table and yada yada.... Lately I have been too tired to rebute (which I normally do), so I would just keep quiet. I wished my brother was home, at least some one to share the "burden". There must be something seriously wrong with me.... for I am not someone who likes to keep things. Issit because when we grow older, we ought to watch what we say? Or rather, we brush it off and prefer not to speak anymore. I am not angry or whatsoever cuz I know it's my fault.... but I am just too tired.

Sch started on Monday and I feel that there is a constant lack of sleep recently. Ppl suffer from insomnia whereas I suffer from the zzz monster virus. Just shoot me, online shopping is so evil.... tho I prefer the brick and motar malls... Grrr.... happily spent moolah again tho I know I am supposed to SAVE.... even DBS is cutting 900 staff, I feel super unsafe now la... Retrenchment is no joke man....


Mum told me something just now (before all her shoutings) which sets me thinking about my future. Tho sometimes she practises verbal diarrhoea pretty well on me, but once in awhile I have to admit that her words actually make lots of sense. As much as I would like to share, I think it is better not to. I guess I will just take a step and watch on, tho I know age is catching up. I just hope my judgement is not wrong.


Caught up with emo on Sunday night and it was a real girly heart-to-heart talk. Good that I can share most of my stuff with her and she can understand it totally. It feels like eons since I met her!!! Gosh, we all grew with circumstances... heh. The funniest part has got to be her new driving experience in Singapore. We all know she has licence back in Bombay but driving here in Singapore is just a brand new experience. I can't wait for my turn to come quickly!!! :)


Momo, our all-time favourite indian!


Went to Bt Batok Civil Service Club last Sat to celebrate Filonia's 21st!


As you could see, its a purple themed bash... most of us were dressed in purple... :)


The birthday girl Fifi, ken and I.


Dominic the lucky guy... surrounded by all the girls. Haha.


My dive buddy and I.... tho we seldom get paired up under the sea


First pic of the partaye.


This girl beside me has all the weirdest fetish.... think alcohol, brocolli, high socks and the list goes on...


Hello alcohol...


And then we all went to bowl.... seriously I can't bowl to save my life. Lowest score thru the night, how sad right!! But its ok. I did my best.


The old school girls. The times we had our socks so high up... haha those were the days... I miss it so much that I would trade all the donuts I ever had in my life just to go back again.


Last but not least, I shall give some air time to Fifi's dog:

Yours Truly. 9:37 PMY

Egg-citing December up next!

I was looking at the calendar and woo-la-la!!!! December is so gonna be darn exciting. :) We are having 2 half-days and 2 PHs.... and YES Xmas!!! My all-time favourite..... the birth of Christ! The department is having a 20-over ppl potluck but I have yet to decide what to bring! I love the part where all of us would exchange prezzies... I wonder whose my secret Santa this yr. ;)

Year-end bonus is something I really look forward to as well.... these money could be put to good use... like diving in Sipadan??? =P Mum better don't be reading this... heh.... Hmmmm if not I think half of it will go to the sch fees or even my insurance premium. :( Well, good news is that I have finally paid the last installment of my sch fees!!! I feel like a freeee bird! I hope the braces will be out by first quarter of the year so that I can save up some money! I heard the retainers' gonna cost a bomb and stories like ppl taking the retainers out and placed them on the table wrapped with tissue during meals and then cleaner auntie who comes along will assume its rubbish and dump it. -_-To curb that problem, I think I shall go buy a box that looks as tho it's worth a million and put my retainers inside.

ZOUKOUT!!!! I hope I can go there this year as I haven't been there before... tog with the rest of the ASSS entourage. :) 13 Dec it shall be, I am pretty sure it will be fun....

Going overseas somewhere in mid Dec as well.... :)

I think the above pretty sums up my December... looks unconvincing but I am sure it will be like the cherry month which tops the year off. :)


I was damn pissed off with someone close to me last week. I am upset for the fact that things have changed so much since a few months back... I am disappointed that we can no longer be like how it used to be.... no sacarsm, no hurting words, no lame actions and only being genuine to one another. I enjoyed the times spent together but I know it will not be this way anymore. I have no frigging idea how much things have turned around. Sigh. Like they always say, it takes two hands to clap.... and I definitely think that I play a part in messing things up as well... all I want to say is... I'm sorry for all is done and I hope we can be how we were - talk nonsense and forever yakking away abt dramas and news. I miss the times..... man..... I seldom get so upset but I guess its all because I value the friendship. It's hard to find a true friend... esp some ppl are constantly wearing a mask... its so hard to tell a person these days and not everyone can be a "friend". Some are just there because they want something from you, some are there because its just a stop-over, some are there because of the same agenda and some are there simply because they are meant to be.

Wow, my blog has been so emo lately. I have no idea why.... Tml's Fri, I was still very excited about it... but suddenly, not so anymore... Maybe I shld just go home and shut myself up on this very Fri nite... there are so many things I wanna say but I just can't.... So many.... sometimes I feel like I am on my own in this very huge world... left alone.... its not a bad thing cuz it gives ourselves time to evaluate and allows us to take a step back to look at the whole picture.... I think the past and experience has taught me well where to place my priorities for I don't want to go thru what I have been thru again. Once is always enough. :) Applies across the board in this case. It's so hard to tell a person's true feelings and heart nowadays... even me myself have doubts.... I guess confidence plays a big role... Well, we must always think positive and be happy in any circumstances!!! *thinks*

My life seems pretty stale lately, I think its time to try out something new.... I feel like playing pipa!!! I shld go back and pick up that instrument again, afterall I sort of reminisce the joy and woes of the 4 years when I was self-declared musically inclined. Chin-chiong-fied it may be but the pipa will always hold special meaning. The sense of belonging in the orchestra for that 4 years is my endorphine. Heh. If not, latin ballroom dancing?? The shoes are collecting dust since the poly days... which is approximately a year back.... or how about the tennis which I am still bad at?? Or maybe wakeboarding!!!! I am so tempted now!!! I shall go source out and collect the information and jio ppl to join me! :)


Drink water and rest enough ppl! The weather has been cranky.
God bless everyone and may he take me through my lousy days and especially very emotional periods. :)



P.S. Jessica Tan is such a babe! She's my definition of a charming lady.... brains, brawnz and beauty. Her smile definitely mesmerises many others out there! I want her teeth!!! :) Pardon me for the randomness.

P.S.S Obama is now the first Black President in the White House... how ironic! But anyway, I believe the newspaper shld be weighing out the new impact as the Big Brother of the world presents the throne to its history-marker democratic black leader. :) Till then Mr Republican!

Yours Truly. 9:07 PMY

I can't help but think that ppl can get so impossible sometimes! What they may appear to be, may not seem that way. Those with superiority thots abt themselves are totally shallow, thou I gotta admit that we all do feel that way once in awhile. Sigh. If only the world is filled with more genuine ppl, it's almost like finding a needle from the desert. Boo. Materialism and attention seeking has taken over them. Sigh.

I love peace but some people are infested with "Do I look like I care enough to bother?" thots. If only sincerity can get the better of them. If only.... I've learnt that simplicity makes life easier to move on and lesser competitions cease the devil within one. Ppl get tired too. Really. What has our world come to?


On a happier note, I finally bought a haversack! Yellow one some more, my fave colour. :) Good for travelling around for dive trips or even Kelong trips next time! Rain just couldn't go away and there goes our plan of snapping some beautiful pics at Lil India and Chinatown, looks like the plan can only resume next week. Sch's starting again in 1 week's time, I am excited with the anticipation but yet dreading the tiring days ahead. Oh well, push on and move on.



Lord, I am afraid. I am afraid of the changing humanity and I am afraid of losing what used to be and what belongs to me. I hope I will be blessed and including ppl around me too.

Yours Truly. 12:01 AMY

Has it...........? Maybe it is. For the fact that I am feeling this way. I dun wish to question cuz the truth sets to hurt sometimes. So many things running thru my head and I dunno where to begin with.

Came back from Kelong in Msia last weekend! The rustic life is so different. :) Something refreshing for a change. :) Celebrated a dive mate's 21st! It was a sheer surprise for her I guess. Glad to see everyone so merry! Xmas is coming soon, I cant wait! :) Season of love, joy and giving. Christmas just gets better each year!!!! Tho i remembered I had a bad one 2 years back but time flies. Now its 2 years down and my Christmas is getting exciting! This year has been a terrific one, many break-throughs for me and I am so darn proud of it!

Went out with Fel ytd and spent a bomb. I shall not elaborate. Heh... it feels good with retail therapy. Girls need it once in a while. Next up, I shall shop at Parkway and Katong area, haven been there for ages! Post fotos another time, so frigging sleepy these few days, must be the endless meetings and last-min work.....

I learnt something new about myself today but sometimes, I just can't help it and I can't control myself. I should learn more on how to think before I speak. Sigh. Am 21 already, must think and act like one Miss Tan....


Happy Halloween ppl!!!!!

Yours Truly. 11:06 PMY

Went Vivo just now... ah it was a MISTAKE!!!! Saw so many things I like BUT I have to control myself.... bought a top from Nichii only in the end... and bought fefe's bday present, its so HER. Sorry fefe, no Agnes b necklace, if not there won't be an element of surprise already. But I am sure you will like this one also. :)

I went TopShop just now and saw this denim skirt, haven been looking at denim skirts for a long time BUT this time, I saw one that I REALLY REALLY LIKE! Tried and it fits so well! A tad too short I suppose....


I am even thinking about it now but $73 for this, kinda not worth it..... BUT ITS SO NICE! Oh well..... If only I was born in a money printing family yea. Haha.


Saw an accident just now on PIE. Fatal one and again, involving motorbike. Its so dangerous to drive on the road man, esp if ure a motorist. :( Can u imagine if the guy is on his way home after work, rushing to meet your beloved wife and kids and such things happen. Life is so shitey sometimes. May he rest in peace and God bless his family to get past this asap.


Time for bed. Goodnite!

Yours Truly. 10:45 PMY

Have you ever felt like you are living in surrealism?


Everything seems like a daze, it all happens in a flash with a dash of reality. I think I did, a few times. Its especially true when old memories come flooding into your brain bank.

Anyway, I had a blast on my 21st. Was really touched that two days, makes me feel as tho I was a princess. :) I am really lazy to post peektures up here, so kindly view my facebook for images of the birthday celebration. :)

Part I - http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=64403&l=f9230&id=621411612
Part II - http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=64423&l=55d93&id=621411612
Part III - http://www.new.facebook.com/album.php?aid=64863&l=45763&id=621411612

14th Oct - Stayed over at Coasta Sands @ Sentosa; Dive mates came to surprise me with cake and flowers; Some stayed overnight and had tons of fun
15th Oct - MY BIRTHDAY. Visited some of the attractions in Sentosa with Ken Boy (Luge Ride, Insect and Butterfly World; Images of Singapore; Merlion). Had a roof top garden pte jacuzzi at Siloso Beach Resort! Excellent view nice jacuzzi and swimming pool and of cuz nice price too!
16th Oct - The last surprise came when I was told that we are going to DIVE WITH THE SHARKS! I wasn't even mentally prepared!

I am looking forward to this weekend!!! Can't reveal too much yet until next week. Heh.

Sch fees due again, but something to rejoice abt - its my last semester with two modules left and it's gonna be my last payment for the whole course! :) Next year I will be richer!!!!! Time to move on to another resolution for next year - I shall finally go sign up at CDC for my driving licence!!! Let's hope my driving skills won't be as bad as how I always fare in Daytona. -_-


Was really pissed ytd, complained to a few ppl but I am okaye now. I guess I won't act like how I used to be. Afterall we are all adults and I believe the maturity is there. I guess I did exaggerate a little at times. But seriously, its in my black book now even tho I have decided to forgive and move on. Shld log this down so I will remember. Not because I want to but it helps to serve as a reminder to myself. :) Let's not talk abt unhappy things!

Fefe's 22nd is coming. Haha it was like ytd when we celebrated her 21st... time really flies.... supersonically fast. Emo's bday is coming as well.... :) The girl is forever busy but CONGRATS EMO, u finally got ur licence! Time to drive us around with ur new car (you promised!!).. Haha I guess that must be her best 22nd birthday tho it came a little early.


Alrighty, time for bed. GOODNITE!
Oooh my head just cannot stop thinking of this coming weekend!

Yours Truly. 10:55 PMY

As the saying goes, a leopard can nv change its spots. A person's character is built upon years. Its not so easy to change it anyway. Sometimes I wonder what's the point of speaking when the main point is not communicated across despite feeling unhappy for so long. If sorry is such a useful word, then why do people still get convicted for murder, robbery and rape? I guess ultimately the word sorry doesn't help anymore, it boils down to understanding the importance of mutual respect and consideration of ppl's feelings. If this can't even be fulfilled, how to even go on?

It's apparently back to square one. Wow, shld I even feel happy or sad? I don't know.

Yours Truly. 8:35 AMY

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